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04 June 2010 @ 07:11 am
Letting Go.  

Title: Let ting Go
Word Count: 380
Summary:  As the boys hug at Jared’s wedding they are being watched. 
Rating: PG13
Warnings: None
Disclaimer: These gorgeous men are not mine, no matter how many bloody crossroads I stand at.  It’s got to the point where I’m greeted with “Oh hell, not you again!”   Neither do I own Danneel, what do I look like I want to be depressed? The woman’s gorgeous.  This is a work of fiction based firmly on my own insane imagination, no hurt intended.
Notes:  This was inspired by the picture of Jared and Jensen hugging and I have written this from Danneel’s point of view, before you all yell but she wasn’t at the wedding remember  this be fiction. 
Beta: The awesome bigj52.




We’re getting ready to leave the wedding reception and we’re saying our goodbyes to family and friends.  I see Jensen approach Jared, and I can’t help but watch as at first they speak quietly to one another and then they hug.  Jensen’s arms are wrapped around Jared’s neck, and I’m surprised that Jared can even breathe with how tightly Jensen is holding him.

 As for Jared, I can see how he’s pulled Jensen to him, his large hand splayed out possessively in the centre of his back.  As they hug I see Jared’s eyes slip shut, an intense expression on his face as if he’s memorizing every precious second of this goodbye; the way that Jensen feels in his arms; the smell of his cologne; each memory to be catalogued and stored away like a precious treasure.

Then Jared opens his eyes and he looks at me. I smile back at him. I can see that Jared is gathering the strength it will take to let go of Jensen and send him to me.  Finally Jared steps back, holding Jensen at arm’s length, and once more they do their famous communicating without saying a word.  So much passes between them in a single look - friendship, partnership and more importantly, love. Jared is smiling although that smile doesn’t reach those hazel eyes.  He spins Jensen round slaps him on his back and pushes him towards me.

It’s as Jensen walks towards me I’m gripped with a realization.  Jensen isn’t really mine - I’m merely borrowing him from the man who holds Jensen’s heart alongside his own, who loves him enough to let him go.

 Jensen stands in front of me and he smiles at me. To anyone else it’s a beautiful smile full of love and devotion.  But I know it’s a pale imitation of the smile he gives to Jared, his eyes sparkling with love.  I wish I could read those eyes the way Jared can.  As we turn to go I see Jensen’s eyes turn once more to Jared, as he gives him the kind of look I can only ever dream of.  As I take his hand, I know deep down in my heart, that one day soon I’ll be the one that has to let go.


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Annieaythia on June 4th, 2010 12:43 pm (UTC)
Beautiful and heartbreaking :(
sasha_dragonsasha_dragon on July 21st, 2010 12:30 pm (UTC)
Thank you, sorry it took so long to respond, but RL and other fics distracted me.
allydeniseallydenise on June 4th, 2010 01:36 pm (UTC)
Heartbreakingly poignant.
sasha_dragonsasha_dragon on July 21st, 2010 12:31 pm (UTC)
*Blushes* thank you.
Binebine110987 on June 4th, 2010 01:53 pm (UTC)
OMG! I'M crying like a baby!
This short snippet said so much more then a 1000 words never could.

Thank you so much for writing this.
sasha_dragonsasha_dragon on July 21st, 2010 12:32 pm (UTC)
*Passes tissue* thank you for your lovely comment. Once I saw the picture it wouldn't let me go unitl I'd written this.
     Mandy: Finally the Huga_phoenixdragon on June 4th, 2010 03:47 pm (UTC)
Gorgeous, warm and sad...thank you honey.

shenovashenova on June 4th, 2010 05:53 pm (UTC)
So sad but beatiful at the same time. Sometimes the hardest thing is to let go but it can also be the best thing and helps you to move on in your life and I think that is what your were trying to say but also Dani realisation that maybe she will have to do the same one day.
sarenja1978sarenja1978 on June 4th, 2010 06:00 pm (UTC)
Oh my god!
Everything, really everything is said in these 380 words.
The expressions, the feelings of Danneel and how the boy´s are acing with each other.
I really really enjoyed reading it. Its so full of the things that are unspoken and... well what do i stammer around?

It´s simply amazing, so many many thanks for sharing it.
palodoecious on June 4th, 2010 06:21 pm (UTC)
Beautiful, that is all i can say!
Thank you!
mittmittaines on June 4th, 2010 06:58 pm (UTC)
Thank you, this is all I need to say :)
fishgirl52fishgirl52 on June 5th, 2010 03:56 am (UTC)
wow. *sniff* wonderful job.
trailer_queen: J2 Forevertrailer_queen on June 6th, 2010 01:39 am (UTC)
Wow. Just wow. And you described this picture so perfectly. It really does look as if Jensen is clinging to Jared for dear life, and vice versa. So heartbreaking. I wonder if years from now we will know the truth?
Jolenejolinarmalkshur on June 6th, 2010 02:59 pm (UTC)
wildwordwomyn on June 8th, 2010 04:58 pm (UTC)
Aww. Poor Danneel! Great job with this:)
fanofsuperfanofsuper on June 12th, 2010 01:45 am (UTC)
Poor Danneel, she knows that Jared & Jensen's heart will always belong to each other.