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11 June 2013 @ 12:02 am
Why do I do this to myself?  

Friends, Romans, Fl*sters, there I was minding my own business figuring new and interesting ways to torture Jensen.  When you guessed it the H/C Bingo cards came out!  And Once again I succumbed, how many years is this?  Don't forget one of the stories I'm locked into a battle to the death with, was one of the prompts off last year's card.

You know that first time transformation one? Well that little 'fic', ha little!  Is now over 10,000 words, it's developing it's own bloody mythology.  Now I've even managed to get Jensen whipped off camera by a bunch of puritanical priests for unnatural urges towards Jared *heads desk* please will somebody please either slow me down, tell me to stop, or for god sake reign me, in and give a way to write a shorter version of this! Because at the moment over 2000 words of the ruddy thing is Just Jared, Jensen and lots of schmoop and protective Jared fussing over his mate, no actual plot just schmoop!

In other words.....hhhhheeeeelllllppppppp!

Right I feel better for that, and even more bloody stupid as I signed up for this, I'm sure I can do this, look it's only 500 words a fic not 10,000 *giggles hysterically* 500 words.....right!  It can take that many for me to introduce a character.

So without further wibbling here is the latest card, I probably won't finish unless I can encouragement, help, more than 24 hours in a day!

arena experiments by evil scientists secret identity discovered unrequited pining attacked by a creature
restrained caught in a robbery forced to face fear rape / non-con self-harm
bullet wounds deprogramming WILD CARD taking care of somebody homesickness
loss of vision nightmares forced marriage Stockholm syndrome forced to participate in illegal / hurtful activity
forced soulbonding hospital stay loss of hearing learning to be loved loss of limb / limb function

Somebody stop me, or better yet find a way to get me to finish fics!  So go on then any comments, threats, the desire to run screaming away from my journal? (No, not you Jensen, my darling little muse, I want you where I can see you *evol g*)

Now tell me again why do I do this?  More to the point can someone help me out of the corner I've written myself  into with my dragon fic, or better yet help me find some writing talent!

Now I will leave you good people to the rest of your day, while I lie in a darkened corner and gibber!

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Saltandburnboyssaltandburnboys on June 11th, 2013 12:08 am (UTC)
God, I want one now - it's so pretty! And I've still got my h/c bingo card from last year too- probably only about half done. It's a bit annoying that I'm pitiful at art and can't write short (really short like 2000 words) stories for shit so all my squares develop into a full blown stories. So even though I've done a relatively large amount of writing over the last year, it's still only filled a few squares. :-/. ...I still might get one of these anyway.

And god, don't beat yourself up. I've got a folder of about a hundred WIPs - so many fics just fizzle out or I lose interest in them, lol.

So looking forward to the transformation fic... :-)

You can always hit me up if you want some motivation - I'll probably be trying to write/edit as well.

sasha_dragonsasha_dragon on June 11th, 2013 07:13 pm (UTC)
I know it's a gorgeous card and I love the prompts *G* I'm hopeless at short stories, come on you've seen my stories and short they ain't!

I hope you get a card anything to encourage you to write!

Tell me about unfinished stories, I've got em everywhere, so I know what you mean about losing interest and fizzling out *G*

I'm going to keep battling on with the transformation fic.

thank you for the motivational offer, I think we scribblers should stick together and wibble *G*
Wataru Kisugi: JAByRaloria003wataru_kisugi on June 11th, 2013 05:53 am (UTC)
I do LOVE your schmoop story to death so don't worry. Give me anything!!

BTW, I don't remember much reading a story about self-harm. I know there's some but not many. Also, deprogramming sounds interesting... *evil grins*
sasha_dragonsasha_dragon on June 11th, 2013 07:17 pm (UTC)
Thank you for saying you love my schmoop, it makes the heart glad, so I'll schmoop away.

There are so many of these i like I'll see where my muse takes me.
Somersomer on June 11th, 2013 06:26 pm (UTC)
Uhhhhhh, what a pretty card. You probably have to chain Jensen to your chair if he ever gets a look at this but he has to fucking deal with it :)

I want to read everything!!

And what's with the dragon fic. Does Jensen not behave, problems with the dragon anatomy (come on, everything is just a good deal bigger). And somewhere above I've read whipped and Jensen in one sentence...now, that can't be bad.

Have faith, have hurt!Jensen thoughts, bribe the muse, imagine a naked Jensen all bloody laying in Jared's arms...does that help? ;)
sasha_dragonsasha_dragon on June 11th, 2013 07:48 pm (UTC)
Yes it's a very pretty card, and thank you for the advice with how to deal with Jensen for the duration of this. I'm sure I'll keep him as comfortable as I can, until I break out the whips and chains.

I'm so happy you want to read everything, it means I'll have to get writing won't I?

Oh the dragon fic *shakes head* now it's nothing to do with Jensen having problems with his dragon anatomy (unless you count his skin tearing apart and scales appearing).

It's more to do with my suddenly finding shit loads of exposition, including Jensen freaking out about Jared announcing he is his mate. Then Jensen running off and considering becoming a priest, this is Jared's response.

Jared leant forward and nuzzled Jensen’s neck gently, feeling him squirm slightly in his arms. “Lord I remember, it took a rescue by myself and Christian to get you away from the unholy clutches of that mad eyed idiot Father Edlund.” Jared ground his teeth in anger, “It took all of Christian’s strength to stop me from gutting the barbaric fool when I found out he’d been fasting and whipping you to rid you of your demons.”

A simple transformation fic right?


Somersomer on June 12th, 2013 09:31 am (UTC)
Hah, exposition is good, means more to read for us.

Seems like Jensen still needs to find the right way, huh? Doesn't embrace his new form? And am I getting this right, he wants to go back, becoming a priest, thinking that he actually deserved the whipping and that he can escape his new life? Oh Jensen!

Well, it really doesn't sound like a simple transformation fic but the little glimpses you've shown here doesn't chase me away :)
sasha_dragonsasha_dragon on June 20th, 2013 08:26 pm (UTC)
Hi there, at last I have Wi-fi again!

Right then trying to explain the mess I've gotten myself into. This all started out as a simple first time transformation, and then as I wrote I kept adding bits of plot....bloody plot!

All I wanted was Jensen in pain the night before taking on dragon form for the first time. Now I find myself explaining the history of dragons in this world, and why Jensen is ignorant of their abilities. It's also why he runs off to seek guidance from the priests, it's more to do with the fact Jared is his mate (you know gay bad, and all that).

You see poor Jensen has been kept in the dark about his heritage, and then Jared arrives and things change. But there is more to it and I don't want to spoil you too much.

I hope this doesn't chase you away either *G*
Somersomer on June 22nd, 2013 07:19 pm (UTC)
So, you basically only wanted to write about Jensen in pain and it happened the following thing...

Jared comes along, boom mates, confused Jensen being gay a dragon and a lot more confused, *inserts dragon history*, runs off to let the priests whip it all out of him, Jared to the rescue, *inserts spoilers*, boom hot adrenaline fueled dragon sex.


No, seriously, if history and details sneak in there I think you should just write it down. I think it doesn't happen without a reason :)